Well..

my weekend was fabulous. :)
i had the youth group all-nighter on friday night and it went SO well. we did a video scavenger hunt, ice blocking throught the sprinklers, messy games, and broomball. sooo much fun.
saturday i slept a lot an hung out with eric and jen.
sunday i had church, then went down to the beach.

yesterday and today i had school but i didn't ha ve work, so i went to class and then hung out with jen afterwards. today we went to the beach. it was a really nice day.

tomorrow i have school and work. i'm really excited to have a set routine again. it's the 1st day of school tomorrow for the kids at Arbor Christian School where i work, so everyone's schedules will be back to normal.

i'm going to be working from 1-6. 1-330 i'll be assisting the 3/4 grade teacher and 330-6 i'm an after school supervisor. hooray for being back on a definite schedule! :)

well... see ya later. :)

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So Tiredddd...

i got 6 hours of sleep last night and i don't get to sleep again until tomorrow morning at about 8:30.

i'm about to go run some errands to get a bunch of stuff for the youth all nighter tonight. i'm also going to put some gas in my car.

i'm kind of excited for tonight. we're doing a video scavenger hunt, ice blocking, messy games, broomballing, and some other tournament type games. it's gonna be a good time. i love working with the youth. :)

i wish i had a costco card...

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Summer... School... LIFE :)

well summer is over. i haven't blogged very much at all, but i really should do this more often. i know i keep saying that... maybe this time i'll stick with it.

anyways, my summer was pretty great. i went to fuge (youth camp) and it was my first year as a leader which was really awesome. the 2 weeks right after camp, i went to washington state to visit with some family. it was SPECTACULAR... minus one thing. i was sick the entire time i was there. poop.

This is the view from my aunt tracy's beautiful home. i spent a couple days hanging out here with my cousin. love it.

since i've been back, i've been working... and working... and working. i do a lot of that these days.

School started up again on monday... i'm taking health, writing, and math. 12 units. not too little. not too much.

the youth all-nighter is tomorrow night. i've planned the wholeeee thing. it's going to be a blast! i hope the kids have fun.

OH! i almost forgot... i have a new car... only because i totaled the old one. it was a lot of stress, but i ended up with a nicer car? and of course... higher insurance bill. ehh... that's life i guess. being an adult is expensive. i miss those days when i'd get money and spend it on whatever i wanted at the time. oh well. haha.

it's been super hot this week. what's with that? the weather was so sunny and cool all summer and NOW it decides to be hotter that hades? i don't understand. dear autumn... please bring your weather to orange county soon. love, me.

i read a friends blog earlier and something she wrote stuck out to me. she said "if you HAVE to do something, why not have fun doing it?" while this obviously can't apply to every situation... it can apply to most. it's one if those things that everyone probably hears often but for some reason it just stuck out to me more today.  if i'm going to be stuck at work in the hot hot hot 100 degree heat... i'm going to do my best to have fun while doing it. there's no use in complaining about it... i need the money, therefore i must work. so i'm going to go have fun while doing it.

speaking of work... i gotta go.

<3

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ready...

i'm ready for vacation. i need a break from work... from lake forest... from everything that is familiar.
i like living here, but i go crazy if i don't get a little vacation every now and then. i've been getting a taste of reality this summer by working 40 hour work weeks. it's tiring.
i never believe those adults that told me they'd rather go to school than work full time. hahahaha. now i kind of understand.

...but at the same time, i would never go back to high school. i did my time there. it was great. now i'm done.
i just have college to worry about now. ugh. so many classes to take.

anyways... this post is rather pointless.

i wish it was exactly one week from today.
fuge one week
washington the two weeks right after.

how lovely.

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stuff.

I haven't written on here in a while, and I've realized that my day is much better when I get things off my chest. Since I don't think anyone actually reads this... I can vent to my internet. hah...

Earlier today I came across an old friend's blog. I wish I didn't have to say she was an old friend... but we aren't exactly friends anymore I don't think. Just friendly.
It made me think. A lot.
It made me think about change. It made me think about how many changes that I've gone through since the year 2008.
I lost an amazing friendship. Probably the best. And the majority of that was my fault.
I changed, I started hanging out with a lot of people i shouldn't have hung out with, and I lied to her. I lied. And she let me lie. She always knew that I was lying. I don't know how she wouldn't have known.
When senior year started in '09, I started hanging out with yet another different group of friends, and I'm still really good friends with all of those people. They're great friends. I stopped getting into trouble, and I stopped doing those things that I knew I shouldn't be doing. I had a great senior year with some great friends.

I'm not sure exactly where i was going with that except to say that no matter what friends I've made since I ruined my friendship with my best friend... no one has ever taken her place. And no one ever will. Cliche sounding? probably. but it's truth.

For that last couple months I've been thinking about this a lot. I miss her. I want to call her and maybe go to lunch or dinner. something. I want her to know that I'm sorry for lying to her. I'm sorry for everything I did.

But then I start to doubt myself. Have I waited too long? What would she possibly have to say to me?
When we see each other, we don't say much. A lot of stuff can happen in just a couple years. A lot of time can go by in what seems like just a few days.

Maybe the reason why God has put this on my heart is because it IS time for me to reach out to her. Maybe we were supposed to wait for this until we settled down and let the drama pass.

I guess I won't know unless I just do it.

Well... it's lunch time for pre-k. Looks like this post has come to an end.

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all that i can say - david crowder band

We sang this song in youth last night and I'm almost positive that it instantly became my favorite song. This song is so amazing and so true. I think I speak for most Christians when I say that some days it's just really difficult. We have those days where we just wanna cry or sleep ... or both. Things go wrong. We just have flat out sucky days where the last thing we want to do is sit down and read our Bibles or   even pray and we feel like we have nothing left to give. Why is it that the days we need God the most, we forget to turn to him and ask for help? Because we're human... and we think that we have to be strong and independent and do everything on our own. My mom always used to say to me "if you want something done, you do it yourself." and while, this is a quote that I pretty much live by... I can't do anything alone. I need God. Sometimes we feel as if God leaves us... like he sets our hearts down somewhere and forgets about us. But that's not the case. He's always standing next to us, but we forget to talk to him.

Lord I'm tired
So tired from walking
And Lord I'm so alone
And Lord the dark
Is creeping in
Creeping up
To swallow me
I think I'll stop
Rest here a while

And didn't You see me cry'n?
And didn't You hear me call Your name?
Wasn't it You I gave my heart to?
I wish You'd remember
Where you sat it down

Chorus:
And this is all that I can say right now
i know it's not much
And this is all that I can give
yeah that's my everything

Bridge:
I didn't notice You were standing here
I didn't know that
That was You holding me
I didn't notice You were cry'n too
I didn't know that
That was You washing my feet

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If you're going to San Francisco, be sure to wear some flowers in your hair...

Last weekend was amazing :) I drove up to San Francisco with one of my best friends, Brittany, and we watched our high school show choir "Soundsation" compete in a competition up there. Kevin, Chris, and Carson (some of our close friends) met us there as well. They're going to school up north so they had a much shorter, less boring drive. My boyfriend is in the choir and I was glad to be able to see him :) We got there Friday night and stayed until Sunday morning.

Friday I had work so Brit and I left around 1:30 when i got off and we drove up. That drive is so boring... we got stuck in some LA traffic and were kinda worried that we wouldn't make it there by 830... but sure enough we did. :) The performance went well.



Afterwards we experienced this crazy thing called the "San Jose Bike Party" we walked out of the auditorium and there were at least 1 thousand people on bikes... it basically looked like a huge bike rave. Not gonna lie, it was weird. After we finally got out of the bike infested parking lot, we went to check into our fabulous motel 6 in Palo Alto... ick. I was just glad we only had to stay there for a night because it was far less than glamorous :P After check-in, we drove over to the choir's hotel to hang out for  couple hours and then back to the motel ICK.

Saturday morning, we woke up at around 10 and showered, packed up our things, and got the heck outta there & drove to the beautiful, crazy, uneven city of San Francisco. By the time we arrived, we were starving and decided to eat lunch at this amazing little mexican resturant called "La Cumbre Taqueria" that was on man vs. food. We had THE greatest burritos ever and I could barely eat half of mine because they were so filling.

After our yummy lunch, we drove over to Haight St. It was really busy and fun and we went into some pretty interesting vintage thirft stores. After Haight, we went to China Town and looked around over there because the boys wanted to look at all of the illegal items they sell on that street. :P China Town was really busy and we didn't stay there very long.
When we were done there, we decided it would be fun to drive down Lombard Street... it turned out to be more scary than fun... but i'm glad we did it :)

After Lombard, we went to Fisherman's Wharf and Pier 39 to walk around and hangout for a little bit. That was SO much fun. I got attacked by the bush man and some gold painted street performers. Weird. When we were done at Fisherman's Wharf, Brit and I begged the boys to go over to th Golden Gate Bridge and walk across it. We definitely lucked out because we got there right as the sun was setting. It was GORGEOUS! :)

By the time we were done on the bridge, we were extremely hungry again and Chris told us about this burger place over on Pier 1 that was on the travel channel's top ten burger joints in America, so we just had to check it out. The burgers, fries, and milkshakes were absolutely scrumptious and we were totally full once again.

It was about 10 o'clock by the time we left Gott's Roadside Burgers and we were finally ready to head over to Berkeley to spend the night at Chris's dorm. We drove over the beautiful Bay Bridge into the pretty college town of Berkeley and got to see where Chris lives. We got to sleep at around 130.

Sunday, we all woke up at around 930 with sore backs and necks from sleeping on the hard floor and were very tired. We got ready to leave and head home and we left at around 1030. On the way home, Brit and I ended up catching up with the choir's bus and we stopped at the same place to eat, but as we were getting there, they were about to leave, so we didn't really hang out with them. After getting our lunch, we got back in the car and continued the boring drive back to Lake Forest, CA.

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